Kind of like the title of that one movie with Ben Stiller and Edward Norton... but not so much about love or religion but rather in friendship (mostly my ability to be a person someone views as a friend). It seems over the past couple years I've been slowly (or rapidly) drifting into having no people in my life that I see every month... hell even every two months in a social situations. This has worsen even more so now... I haven't seen my "good" friends in about three or four months now. It has nothing to do with the fact with my ability to communicate with people (I'm actually quite good at doing so at times) but with my own self worth. I seem to always take the doormat approach to friendship... I try to be nice, kind, respectfully (never trying to overstep my bounds) while spending money and treating friends to things they would never do in return. Hence; at some point and time, my friends come to expect me to wine and dine them (in some fashion). Thus, if I decide to do something that is exciting or glamorous in their eyes... they just tend to ignore me. If you know anything about me, the one thing that makes me very disappointed in people is when they can't take time out of their lives to at least respond. Yes I'm probably guilty of the same offend from time to time (usually due to work) but I don't quite understand why I am so undesirable as a friend. I'm still kind of perplexed about the reason... due to the fact... I believe that once you get to know me... you know that if you are a close friend... I'm pretty much willing to go out of my way to do anything for you. But, here I sit. It's 6:45 am on Tuesday... still haven't slept from working at late night DJ gig... realizing the last time I hung out with anyone was Halloween (and that was so a couple people from my DJing gig would have a DD that night after I finished my show). I don't know what I really expect from people nowadays... I would just like a relationship where it's not all about me... or all about them... it's about being a good friend and just wondering how the other person is doing. :-\ Sorry, I'm starting to ramble but I just need to vent a little bit while I'm feeling lonely.
I haven't updated my Xanga in forever... so I figured I would do some while I'm thinking about it. At the moment my life is kind of stuck in neutral... so not much has changed since last time I posted. I don't know... it's a lonely isolated feeling having free time when everyone else is busy... and when other people are unwinding... you have to work each and every week. Hopefully life starts looking up a bit... but until then I'm continue to write, play music, record music, and listen to music. Since I have a lot of time at 3 or 4 am on weekends when I get home... I found this band called Telsa Rossa. The band is out of Nashville, TN... (with two members from St. Louis). The reason why I found this band was because I was trying to figure out what one of my best friend's brothers was up to. He was always a fantastic drummer and I was hoping to recommend a new drummer to take lesson from him (since last time I talk to him... he was still teaching). Well... anyway... I found out he was in this band... but not only that his other brother, Aaron, who was a bassist for a band called Satisfaction... is also in the band. I couldn't figure out what song I liked best song by this band... so I just closed my eyed and picked one. Hopefully you all enjoy. If you want to hear Satisfaction as well... I'm more than willing to post a song by them as well. Until next time, I love you all!
I've been following this "young" man's work since he first took over for Mike Mathney years ago. It's funny when it came up... people saw that he made good contact but never thought he would hit for that high of an average. Four years later, he's a .300 hitter... then it was home runs and RBIs... (that's still something people get on Yadi about). To this point of the season, Yadi hasn't hit that many home runs... but the RBIs are coming. Right now Yadi is on a pace to drive in over 100 RBIs. His rookie year it would have been lucky for him to drive in 40 RBIs a year. Quite an accomplishment for a guy that "can't hit".
What does his have to do with me? Nothing. Just a distraction away from a crappy semester of school.
